Well it's been a few months since my last post, but i've been busy as most of you know. unfortunately i really can't talk about what i've been doing for the past few weeks as we have been warned not to. Academy has been extremely rewarding and my class has been working very hard, we can't wait to graduate and do our best. i can't wait to resume a normal life out of academy, i can't wait to see people on a regular basis too. so sit tight, i'll see all of you soon.
Well as many of you know or may not know, MTA finally got things worked out and called me for the position...
It was funny how things rolled around. I had done a decent amount of overtime the past few days before I got the call, and when I did it was like a dream. I don't remember picking up the phone. I remember having a conversation with the woman from human resources but nothing registered until she said "would you like to accept the position?" It was like drinking 3 shots of espresso through my nose. Instantly awakening and tear inducing. Yes 3...
Academy will be 3 months give or take. I'm excited and scared. Worried because I haven't been in school for a long time, and because I have little firearms training. But I'm excited at the prospect of working for a law enforcement agency which can be a little more pro-law than my department... O yeah and the possibility of doubling my current salary with OT once I hit top pay might sweeten the pot a bit...
I'm already friendly with 3 guys that are in my class so it should be a good time. We did everything together from orientation, to the physical agility and medicals, psychologicals, and round after round of drug screening. Thank god they're not testing for roids...(J/K) also an old Sgt of mine is already on the job so I have someone to kind of guide me through the BS and coach me through the necessary.
So I turned in my resignation letter last wednesday and gave DOHMH a week. It was all I could do, I wasn't going to tire myself out getting jammed for OT before I start the most important career move I've ever made. So this coming wednesday was the logical choice, almost gives me a full week of work but will end up giving me about 5 days to readjust to a day schedule before I start academy.
The past couple of days has been very nice, with most people wishing me well and congratulating me. I really will miss the crazy antics at DOHMH. Where else in the city can your partner end up being an active Crip gang member? Don't laugh, when I first started, one of my weekend partners was a part time cop, part time rapper, full time rolling Crip. He got axed after getting locked up with an unregistered gun while wearing his bullet proof vest in a car full of other gang members in the vicinity of a shooting...LOL it doesn't get any better than that kids...
I figured leaving was going to be pretty easy, but it has had it's moments. It's hard saying goodbye to people. Especially the ones you've come to respect and trust (the few in this place atleast) that and I've been banged for overtime pretty much every day since I resigned...I almost get the feeling its retaliatory but at this point it doesn't matter right? Everyone seemed pretty happy but I was disappointed that my chief, who I gotten along with my whole time here blew me off a number of times for an exit interview. He even suggested we do it over the phone, saying he would call me in the afternoon yesterday, but then never even did. But hey I'm not looking back right!? So I shouldn't take it personally. But man it burns me thinking that because they know I'm leaving they are going to make my last few days hell...
Well anyway, I'm almost there. Tomorrow is my last day for DOH, and Monday my career starts. I know it will be fine. I just have to stop second guessing myself.
And now about letting someone down. I was hanging out with a friend of mine last week, and it was just a weird night. I don't know if the new job news had me off my game or if I'm legitimately just not as good a listener and advice giver as I used to be. For the first time in my life I left a friend knowing that anything and everything I said wasn't poignant. And that's something that's been eating at me behind all the good news I've had. I never want to be that guy that's just another acquaintance. I always want to be that guy that can be confided in and trusted. I think I took a serious step back the other night. I just couldn't find the right answers to give and for that I'm sorry. If you're reading this, I hope and think it was a fluke. I've never looked at you that way...I never meant for my response to illicit the reaction you gave from it. I'm still your guy through and through. Maybe soon we can try that conversation again with better results.
Ok as I usually like to do when I've spoken about something not so happy, a bit of good news... Peter "Wrath of" Hahn is coming back to the east coast. Hopefully for the long term but I'm selfish like that...I can't wait for my friend to get back, and I smell a trip to Brother's or Denino's coming up. I already promised him a slice...
Be well everyone.
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